27th August 2013 cont
Having waited for 2 days for the ellusive scan, I had needed to be nil by mouth. In bed on the assessment unit, they were monitoring me and realised that my blood glucose had dropped (what a surprise) so I now had to have another drip of 1000ml glucose following all the saline! Very little sleep, very busy area of the hospital, a kind of chaotic all night sorting ground. Nil by mouth again from midnight in preparation for the scan tomorrow,
Weds 28th August 2013
Finally scanned and no gallstones found. Visited by different consultant and moved to stonehouse ward, cholorectal speciality.
Thursday 29th August 2013
More bloods, they now think I have viral hepatitis, but I am not in a high risk group, have not been abroad, don't do drugs/drink/tattoos, haven't done anything exciting or dangerous! Very jaundice, blood levels getting worse, so presumably liver getting more damaged (will this be reversible?). Am now tearful, as we are no nearer forward in knowing what is causing this. Started one of the best jobs in my life only 6 months ago, have never had a sickness problem, generally I'm like the "Eveready bunny" that just keeps going. I fear this is very serious, and am beginning to pick up the anxiety of those friends and family around me as I just get weaker and more pathetic by the day. My only son graduates from University on the 9th September and I can't see I will be able to go. Tears envelope me.
Friday 30th August 2013
Consultant says I can go home for the weekend and be seen in clinic on Monday. Signed off a further 2 weeks. I'm afraid I will lose my job. I am younger than my partner, and had envisaged being the breadwinner so she could wind down to retirement next year. We have plans. It's all going wrong. I am collected by her and taken home to be nursed as only she can nurse. I know everyone is very worried. I am prepared for the worst and expect bad news.
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