Can't believe I haven't written anything since January! Thats not to say that nothing is happening, it's just all become such an effort to stay positive, I didn't want to keep writing such negative stuff. Thought it was better not to write at all. However, today I experienced one of the worse times since diagnosis. I went for an appointment at the Eye Hospital in Plymouth. I was referred last year as the steroids had caused my eye pressures to rise, so they wanted to monitor in case of further damage. I had seen my own optician a few weeks ago, so already knew things were still not right. Today, they confirmed that pressures are still up. But that wasn't the problem. The doctor I saw asked why I was on steroids. So like the idiot I am, I told him, I have auto immune hepatitis. His response? "Oh dear" in a rather grave voice, so I thought, blimey, he's actually heard of it! But no. The next question was "did you have a blood transfusion ?" Me.."No...it's an auto immune condition". Him..."well did you inherit it?" Me.."No...it's an auto immune condition, my immune system decided my liver was an alien and began to kill it". Him..."well were you a heavy drinker then?" Me...." No....it's an auto immune condition" Him..."I know...but I thought maybe drinking caused it". Me....silence....I knew it would be tears or explosion. Him..." do you work?" Me..."not anymore...I can't because of my condition" Him.... "well what did you used to do? Me.... I've been a mental health nurse for 30 years. Him.."well never mind,  you know from your nursing that things will get better in the future". I couldn't speak anymore to explain that it is a chronic life long condition that I will never be free of.I cried all the way home.