Haven't written this for weeks! I lost my job on 11th August as expected due to this pain in the arse illness. They couldn't have been nicer about it and said they would be happy to re employ in the future (if I'm ever capable again), so I guess I can't complain. I'm going to anyway. I am sick and tired of this condition.I'm sick of all the tablets...immunosuppressants to calm/control the immune response, steroids to help that, omeprazole to protect my tummy from steroid damage, calcium and alendronic acid to protect bones from steroid damage and potassium to reduce cramp caused by steroids.Then theres the daily ritual of E45 and eurax cream to try and calm my skin(caused by the steroids) and special shampoo/ conditioner to reduce hair loss(caused by the Azathioprine).Oh and of course, making sure I eat at regular times and take a full glass of water with evening meals and Azathioprine to reduce the risk of nausea at night. Then theres the weekly ritual of having to wake early to take the alendronic acid before anything else with a full glass of water, remain upright for one hour to prevent burning my oesophagus. Forgive me, but I like a cup of tea within minutes of waking, not keen on trying to stay awake whilst upright for an hour before I can do anything else.My life is ruled by this condition and there is no escape from it. Bloods  were in the safe area for a whole total of about 6 weeks. They are now climbing again and I've just started the whole bloody merry go round for the 3rd time. Steroids have been increased again and so back to frequent blood tests. If I'm grateful for anything, its that I didn't go back to work, because if I had, I would be off sick again after only 1 month. I never even got to feeling less tired/confused/achy etc before its gone wrong again. So, to pracey, I'm still miserable, itching all over, fat, spotty, achy,have thinning (but now short) hair, and have no sustainable energy. I hate looking in the mirror and all clothes are uncomfortable.Every day is a struggle and a challenge that most days i don't want to take on.
For a bit of variety from all the medical appointments, I now have a letter asking me to attend the job centre to discuss ways of helping me back into work.....what bit of I'M SICK don't they get??? Presumably sick notes from the GP and letters from consultantts and a P45 saying  I've been terminated from my contract on the grounds of capability due to ill health isn't quite clear enough for them.